I’m 19. Live with my mom. Recently I quit my job again because it depressed me so much. I couldn’t take it. Everyday I got very intrusive thoughts... My parents are extremely mad at me that I quit (it was my 2nd hospital job). I admit that I lied about being fired, because I knew they would be mad. I said my manager didn’t want me to come back because I was always late (which I was). However, the manager called my dad (works for same hospital diff. department) and asked if I was ok because I havent been coming in. So he stopped talking to me bc I didn’t go back. My mom got over it, but just yesterday things took a turn for the worse. Our house had been completely barren of food, so I used her car to go get food and stuff for the house. With the little bit of money I had left. Meanwhile she was at work and i was supposed to get her. I tried to do a few things before getting her, and ended up taking too long and she completely blew up on me. She got really pissed off because I said “I know thats not my car.” and she just went completely off. So ofc I was mad, went to room to cool off. A few mins later, she demands that I give her money to get something to eat (I just went to the grocery store). I didnt respond to her because I felt like why should I give you money and you completely cursed me out over something small. So she asked me why I had an attitude and I responded exactly like this “You just cursed me out.” Thats the ONLY thing I said! She said how dare I say that, she would never tell her mother that, she could tell me to get out, and to never eat anything in the house ever again. She then brings up my little “boyfriend” who is literally just my friend. She goes on to say I shouldn’t have had an attitude with her (me sitting still and looking at the ground not speaking is an attitude I guess), I should have an attitude with him. And continues on. Then this morning she comes in my room and repeats the same thing. She keeps threatning to put me out, and she’s trying to be nice. She said we’re not equal, and that I’m a kid. (But she wants me to act my age yet, restricts me from hanging out with friends, restricts what I shouldwear, tells me I look disgusting, nasty, hideous many many times.) She says ever since I met my previously mentioned friend I’ve changed, which isn’t true. So aftee that I leave to go eat, I come back and shes on the phone with my dad. She’s telling him I’m a liar, saying she could put me out and I should go stay with my little boyfriend, and who do I think I am. Then this afternoon gets on the phone with him and says the same things. I planned on leaving and doing something which I wont write to trigger anybody. I just feel like they’re blowing me quitting my job out of proportion. I’ve always been a good kid ALWAYS. Good grades throughout school, shy, quiet, timid and respectful. Never snuck out, never stole from them or cursed at them or anything. But this one thing, they sit on the phone and just degrade me over and over again. I’m sorry this is so long. I’m starting to feel like I’m worthless and life isn’t really worth living anymore. I just wanted to let this out somewhere. Everything was fine but now this one small thing drove my family apart. I say one small thing, I get degraded for no reason.