I don’t think god is real anymore. He doesn’t guide me. I remember asking him for advise in a time of desperate need, he didn’t answer. I had an abortion. I’m alone. I am depressed. He doesn’t comfort me. I feel sick. I feel unworthy of love. I pray. I pray so hard. I prayed everyday for 12 months. He doesn’t do anything. He is like an illusion that cease to help people. If he is real, then he’s not caring.