Help me with how I feel about down therešŸ‘‡šŸ»

Hi so Iā€™ve been with my boyfriend of over 4 months and we havenā€™t done more then make out and we both want to do more sexually but I feel like Iā€™m very different down therešŸ‘‡šŸ» like I hate having pubes it gives me so much self consciousness and I feel gross and that way my vagina is I feel different and I feel as tho if he sees I will be judge but ik thatā€™s not the case bc heā€™s such a sweet guy and loves me for me but I just need help with knowing I shouldnā€™t feel like this any tips?