I had an early vvvfl that kept getting darker as the week went on. Finally, got a blood positive at the doctor’s office and was ecstatic but very nervous, I had a chemical in August 2018.

It was still very early 4 weeks and a few days and a negative urine at the doctor’s office but hcg level was higher and I was a bit more excited. Told husband and family because I had 2 blood confirmations at this time.

Started cramping days later, then Sunday Morning, I woke up to blood. Hubby convinced me to go to ER, even though I bawled my eyes out knowing what this was. Hcg dropped, I knew it was over. Bleeding very light until today, Thursday, cramps unbearable and passing clots and other things I can’t bear to think about.

I can’t believe this is happening to me, the emotional pain is unbearable, but the physical pain is a reminder that my little one died before I knew him/her, inside of me. I’ll never be the same.