I lost my virginity when I was 15 and when that happened I was fine with sex and pretty much everything that comes with it... except for oral sex being given to me. It has always made me uncomfortable or nervous in some way. It might have started after I got raped a few years ago but before that I think I was only ever eaten out once and it didn’t enjoy it... I’m really self conscious about that and even sometimes about being fingered. I love sex but sometimes it’s hard when you don’t like that stuff and they are used to giving it...