Today I found out my husband is staying six months longer in korea...

He’s missing the birth of our third and final baby also our miracle baby as we were told pregnancy was no longer in my cards.

Now not only is he missing the birth but it will be a full year from the last day we spend with him to the next time we are together. Our kids will all be a year older and our baby will be 9months old when he/she meets daddy.

I feel like all my friends back home have ditched me. I messaged my supposed BFF telling her was extending and how upset I was and she just left my message on read.

I messaged another friend who I planned to hang out when I get home and she too just read my message and never replied.

My husband is working nights and got home and I tried to talk to him and he was just in his own world I felt like I was talking to myself. When I asked him if he could please listen to me that I’ve stayed up to talk to him even though I’m exhausted he said fine let’s go to bed. Huffed and puffed saying he was trying to unwhine which I understood but his told made my hormones ass cry and now I’m in bed crying. He apologized for snapping but I’m just feeling completely down with feeling like I have no one to talk to. The only person who understands me seems like he doesn’t want to talk about it.

I’m just so lost and lonely 😔