I guess this is more of a rant but I'm at a loss...

The last few months have been hard financially & I've had a lot of family issues, on top of my partner going through a messy divorce & custody battle. I didn't even have a Christmas because my family is so messed up & 2 days after Christmas I find out my mom is in jail...it just never stops.

Yeah, I keep my head up cuz it could be worse but when will it end?? 😭

Yesterday I was at work & my bf calls me (back story: he was having issues with his right testicle, went to the ER Monday, they gave him antibiotics but didn't say what's wrong so he had to follow up with his Dr & that was yesterday)....he tells me the Dr said he has chlamydia! So, I get that it's just an STI & antibiotics treat it, it's very common, etc...but he had the nerve to tell me to be honest if I've cheated on him! We've lived together 7 months & I haven't even talked to another guy this whole time. What's worse is that I thought he had only slept with 5 other girls before me, then 2 months ago he tells me he's fucked over 100 easy, hasn't had an STD test in over 6 years! Wtf? I had 3 tests in the last 9 months, all of which were negative.

The Dr told him it could lay dormant for up to a year or more in men without symptoms & we've only lived together 7 months. I'm assuming he got it from someone before we met & didn't know. Cuz what are the chances that I would've given it to him?? I had a test a month before we met & one in December when I had my IUD out... So no it was not me who gave him anything!! On top of all that, we decided last month we wanted to TTC our first. I'm in my fertile window & we can't even have sex! We've never gone more than 2 days without some kind of intercourse and it's been 6 days & now it'll have to be longer cuz I have to start antibiotics too & we can't do anything until that's over...😭😭 I'm just tired of shit being thrown at me. How much can I hold before I collapse...and how do I know I can really trust my own partner??