*This is me ranting, it's a bit longer than it should've been*

Dear Angels of Choas, Angels of Misfortune, Angels of Death, better yet Angels of Negativity. How long will you haunt and take over the world with all of your foolishness?

I've tried my hardest to have strong faith in God, I'll even admit I falter sometimes under those Angels actions until I just can't take it anymore and pray that God shun those wicked creatures out of my life and out of my home.

2017, I lost my first son in January, then afterwards I got pregnant again and lost my second son in August. I could barely function from that, not to mention my SO and I were behind on our bills due to the unexpected lost and me being out of work until my materinty leave took effect. To make matters even worse, I got into a car accident on December 31, 2017. I asked God for strength because I couldn't take it anymore, just as soon as I gave in and asked for him, a voice in the back of my head told me, "It's all over now,". Luckily, the woman who caused the accident said she would cover all payments for my vehicle, her vehicle, and insurances, including the ticket for reckless driving.

Then, 2018 comes and all seems fine except our apartment complex wants us to leave because of our dogs (pits) and we can barely find another place to call home (with the grace of God, we found a place). Once we moved everything into the apartment and slowly begin to unpack, I get a phone call literally 1 day after our move-in date, that one of my cousins died from a robbery, then the cousin who survived the robbery died from suicide (mind you I grew up with these 2), and my other cousin tries to commit suicide due to the lost of the other 2. I find out that I'm also pregnant during the time I hear of the passing. Afterwards, I get tons of bad news about more family members dying, and my mother is dipping deeper into depression because of the bad news.

2019, more reports of bad news. Our president, cuts back government peoples pay AFTER the holidays, and wants to cut government assistance to those that needs it the most to build a damn wall. 😑Seriously?! Not to mention, but my aunt has been in and out of the hospital because of heart problems, my mother can't get a break, I'm out of work due to complications; it's literally a never-ending cycle of problems. Not just with me, but the world! It only makes things worse because there is no solution, no resolution, no REAL peace.

I will just say, God, smite those Angels of Negativity, and let us find redemption and peace within your loving arms. Only you can mend this unwanted choas back into the depths of the world, where they belong.

*Ranting over*