What do you do when it’s not your month again, or someone else announces a pregnancy?

Last month was the hardest one I’ve had since our 2year TTC journey. Since then it’s like I haven’t quite gotten out of that down stage. Yesterday my husband told me our friends are expecting and they weren’t trying; she had just stopped taking her BC because they were thinking about maybe trying soon. And it just sort of broke me more. I’m back to feeling like bawling and not keeping my emotions under control like I normally can.

I hate when ppl say to just not think about it because trust me, I’m trying that constantly; telling me doesn’t make a difference. I want to have myself under control and not be a mess but I just can’t seem to at this point.

I’m just wondering what other women do if they’ve reached the same stage I have. Do you just let yourself cry and power through it? Do you do something nice/special for yourself? If so what do you do? And do your husbands care? I know it’s probably not true but I’m afraid my husband will think it’s ridiculous if I get to the point I need to do something whenever I’m having an extra hard day. I wouldn’t do it a lot obviously but I just feel like maybe that would make me look weak I guess. I just need some input and anything encouraging please.