My husband and I have hardly seen each other lately due to his work schedule and we won't have much of a chance until later next week. Tonight is really the only night we can do anything, but instead he is going to a movie with one of his co-workers, my "ex".

Okay, so I never actually dated this guy, but he is just like my most recent ex in every single way. He looks exactly like him, he sounds exactly like him, he talks exactly like him, his mannerisms are just the same, the list goes on. I met this guy at another one of their co-worker's wedding a couple years ago. I saw him from across the room and was 100% sure it was my ex. Later that night, he came and sat at our table, and again, I was 100% sure it was my ex. He and my husband talked for a while, I was so confused as to why him and my ex we so buddy-buddy now (we all went to high school together and my husband hated him). I was so uncomfortable the entire night, because like I said, I truly believed this man was my ex-boyfriend (whom things did not end well with). He kept talking to me and my husband and I was just so nervous and on edge the entire time. After the wedding, my husband assured me that he was not my ex and I expressed how I felt, kind of explaining my actions and attitude I had that evening.

They have become really good friends, and although I know that this man is NOT my ex, it still feels like he is because they seriously are like the same person. I get very uncomfortable whenever my husband talks about him and I know I really shouldn't. There is no reason for me to, but I still do. Of course I'm not going to interfere with them being friends, but I can't help how I feel.

Now, they are going to a movie tonight and then he is bringing him back to our house to hang out. I'm upset at the fact that he is going out with a friend tonight instead of doing something with me. I know I'm going to be so awkward and nervous while they are at our house as well. I don't really have anywhere else to go, not that I should have to leave my own house.

I just needed to vent. I'm a little frustrated about not spending time with my husband.

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To those of you acting like I'm crazy. Really put yourself in my position. How would you feel if your husband's friend was EXACTLY like your ex? Down to every last detail. He looks EXACTLY like him, they seriously look like the same person. They have the same exact voice. They talk the same way. They act the same. They have the same mannerisms. It is seriously like a clone of my ex. Tell me you wouldn't feel uncomfortable.

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And no, I do not still have feelings for my ex. He was a liar, manipulating, mentally abusive, and just all around treated me poorly. I was blinded during the relationship because I was young and dumb, but looking back I know he was just using me for sex. This is why I feel so uncomfortable when I am around this other man or my husband talks about him. I don't know how better to explain this. The only thing I can think to compare it to is some type of PTSD (although I know this is not the right term to use, I just can't think of anything else).