Honestly .... I don’t know what to do . I don’t know why it still bothers me even over the last few years

To hit the main points :

When I was 15 my boyfriend was 18.

He was constantly in and out of jail and long story short one night I was with him and he pinned me to the bed and stripped me of my clothes when I kept yelling at him to stop when he put the tip in . Until his brother heard me screaming and forced him off of me . I ran to my car with only a shirt on and sped to the nearest park to gather my thoughts . I have text messages of him apologizing for trying to rape me and then started threatening me till he moved.

I don’t know why it still bothers me but Even though it’s been a few years I’m still traumatized and want to do something . But he has moved since then .