Struggling so bad with crippling anxiety ATM. I get so many good weeks and suddenly there’s days when I just want to stay in bed.

I tried this weekend, my friends had asked for weeks about going out for drinks and food and I agreed. As it came closer I became crippled with anxiety and I didn’t want to go. I always let them down and say no and it’s been months since I went out. So I forced myself to go and I went, but I didn’t enjoy myself. All I wanted to was to go home to my comforts and get into bed.

It’s this I struggle to deal with, I read somewhere that I should be enjoying myself at this age (23) and yet all I want is to stay home. I’m glad I went but I don’t know if putting myself through it all is worth the additional pain.

Please tell me I’m not the only one like this...

Hoping for better days soon!