To everybody that read my post yesterday, thank you for all of your kind words and support!

As some of you suggested, we did go and buy a few boy bits yesterday after finding out the gender but it just highlighted how disconnected I am to boy things. I couldn’t find anything I liked and I found myself heading over to the girl clothes, wishing I could be there.

I’ve started looking at names and hate them all. I can’t find a single name that I like, when I had so many for a girl.

I’m ashamed to say that I’ve woken up this morning feeling just as disappointed as before. I’m terrified that I can’t connect to this baby and I’m not feeling the love towards him that I know I would be feeling if he was a girl. I feel like I should still be happy because he’s healthy but I’m just not 😔 I’m writing this post crying because I feel dreadful for wishing this baby away and wanting something different. 😭

What makes me feel worse is that almost all of our family wanted a girl, so I’m carrying the upset that I couldn’t give them what they wanted, too.

How long did this disappointment last for you lovely ladies?