Need advice, rainbow pregnancy

Em

Hi team. I am strugglinggggg. Nine weeks preg and so thankful. But my last pregnancy was a missed miscarriage last fall- baby stopped growing at 6 weeks and the first ultrasound caught it. I’m beyond that time frame now but still so scared that it’s happening again- what if the baby died again and my body doesn’t realize again? Is every cramp a sign? Any advice is much appreciated ❤️❤️ my brain is a mess. I just want to be happy but I’m too scared.