Just needed somewhere to rant...

So my husband is in the Air Force.. at his last base, he never had to be deployed or had to leave . Yes this was a major blessing for us both & I was a bit spoiled. However, we just PCS overseas to Guam. He’s in security forces & we came here with the knowledge of him only having to be gone twice out of the year for TDY’s (presidential missions). Well...... as soon as we got off our plane we were picked up by one of his sergeants... not long after he breaks the news to us that my husband will be gone a lot & he’ll be traveling away on TDY’s...

Idk why, but i felt like it was a huge slap in the face... I’m not blaming anyone but myself for getting my hopes up & keeping my expectations only to what I was told before even coming here..

I love my husband more than anything & I know he loves me with all of his heart as well... however, the past 5 days we have been down each others throats. We’ve said hurtful things & made each other cry..

yesterday, we had a heart to heart talk..

we told each other we both love each other & care about one another. He told me I just need to trust him and to believe him that nothing will ever happen to our relationship & that he’ll never let anything come between our marriage. I believe him... I just have bad separation anxiety & trust issues...

my husband has never done anything to hurt me ... he has never betrayed me..,

I just have a fear of getting let down & being hurt... I don’t want to feel this way. & he deserves the absolute best. I try my hardest to make him happy... when we’re not arguing we have the best relationship..

I just need advice on how any of you other spouses get through the bumps in the roads when it comes to adjusting to a new life & how you keep your marriage strong.. because right now I’m feeling depressed. I feel like I have no one. & I’m feeling so upset with myself for fighting with him...