Single Mom..

Lately I have been feeling really depressed.. to the point where I can't focus and all I do is cry. I guess I just need to vent 😔 I'm 36 weeks pregnant and have been doing this alone the entire time. My ex left me out of no where when I found out I was pregnant. Because we "argued too much". Well when he left he didn't just leave the relationship he left completely and we would speak once every three weeks and all we did was fight. He was so so mean. He would tell me that he dosent care about me only our daughter that there is no need to speak to me unless it was about her. That it's life and I need to get over it. All I did was cry I ended up losing alot of weight I was extremely depressed that this person I trusted that was my absolute everything for a year and a half looked at me as nothing but the oven. All I asked for was for him to be there emotionally seeing he was the father. I didn't care about a relationship he didn't want me ok? I accepted that. But to walk out and come when it was convenient for him was just so wrong. It got worse while time went on. The disrespect got worse every time I talked to him he would laugh at me call me names tell me to grow up and stop being selfish. I am only 16 years old I work 30 hours a week and have bought everything to support my baby. She's my world. I have even saved a big amount of money so when she comes I can get what she needs. While her father has done nothing but buy himself expensive watches and clothes.. acting as if we don't exist. About a month ago my family sat me down after there was a big fight between our familys. They told me i need to stop speaking to him and not answer. He got so bad that he was screaming at me that he feels bad for our daughter for having me as a mom. That I'm going to grow up to be nothing but a whore. Hearing this destroyed me. After being pregnant alone for months trying to be so strong to do what's right and then have the father of your child tear you down one side and the other all because I wanted him to be there emotionally was just so mean. Here I am now I went a month without speaking to him and then finally tried again to give him another chance.. of course which ended in him not treating me like i am a person and wanting control over everything.while I sit here hurting so much I still can see that his life just goes on as if me and her don't exist. I just want to hold my baby already I'm so sick of trying to be so strong when in all reality I'm alone and hurt 😔 I am so thankful for my family who has been there this entire time accepting the fact I am a teen Mom. Sorry girls I know this is very long I just needed to open up.