Im 33 weeks pregnant. I am constantly hurting sick and watch a toddler daily. I haven't been feeling up to sexual actions. Me and my SO don't live together so it always dirty texting. I hated it to begin with. He doesn't even try to please me. He did before but he started complaining now he never does. When im hurting i dont want to be sexual. i just want loved on. When im not with him hes always like "im sorry your hurting if you was here id rub your back and your feet and makes you something to eat" Well i was staying the night at his place. I haven't seen him since Christmas and hadnt spent the night since thanksgiving. First thing he did was grab my phone and went straight to my search history. I dont care bc i have nothing to hide most of its baby stuff. The thing is why is that the first thing he does when i set my phone down and why did he feel the need to check it? Then later he turned me on like he did it on purpose 100% then hes like im too tired to have sex. Usually id be fine with that but I dont see why he started it if he was tired. Little while after we was cuddling and my back hurt bad. I asked him if he could rub my back. He made me feel like shit and got mad at me for asking. Then he asked me to get up i thought he was moving to get comfortable he curled up in the blanket and layed on the bed in a way i couldnt lay down and we wasnt cuddling. I started to cry. I had no where to lay down my back was hurting... Its like he didnt care. I was on his phone and hed gotten a message from 2 girls i dont know who they are. One seemed mad the others name on his phone was "bay bay". Name could be old because it was on facebook messenger and he had it before we got together. Neither had previous messages so ik he had deleted them. I went through his search history and so much porn... He knows i dont like porn and in our religion its adultery. What made it worse was he was purposely searching for sexy girls not just random porn. I asked him why did he watch porn he denied it. I said its on your search history so he tries to play it off saying it was some funny cartoon porn. I started naming the kinds of porn he was watching then he yells "so what i watched porn the world isnt going to fucking end" i asked him why and he said "i dont please him" i took my dog and went outside sat out there a good minute crying in the cold before he came after me. Now im home thinking in a clear mind what happened and i dont know what to do and feel absolutely worthless...