I cant even sleep without seeeing his ugly face i havent been avle to have sex with my husband because my anxiety gets too high and then the flash backs happen i woke up crying because all i do is relive and relive it over and over agian. Hubby dosent know the real reason i cant have sex. So he thinks that he is not good enough. He is fine i just cant i cant handel the memorys that it brings up. ( i am not talking about my hubby he has never tuched me without my consent he knows what happend he just dosent know the back lash that it still causes me) then my mind starts going well it kinda was your fault so you cant really be mad at your self for it. So now i hate the skin i am in i hate me i wanna just go away