So my doctor was a total asshole. Like I mean he had 0 bedside manor. In November I had my 4th miscarriage. He confirmed it with “oh yea. Look at that. You miscarried. Oh well there’s always next month right.” He then let the room because I got emotional. He’s not old but he’s not going. Anyway so I switched doctors to a new (female, I was having a hard time with a man not my husband lookin at my hooha) doctor. The nurse practitioner comes on the phone and starts taking all the info she can before my appointment. We discussed how long my periods are (5 days, with an average of 33-35 day cycles) we talked about how long we’ve been trying with no luck (13 months) and we talked about why I was switching. She reassured me and then asked when I last tracked ovulation. I stated that I got a positive opk on the 16th and I had ewcm on the 17th. She was then she asked “when did your cold start?” (I had been congested pretty bad and it randomly started at 4dpo, and then suddenly went away on 9dpo yesterday.) I told her about it and she asked if I got anyone else sick, when I told her no she said “I don’t wanna get your hopes up. But a lot of women get sick with congestion and such because their immune systems take a hit to assist the egg in implanting.” I said oh yea I don’t think that’s why (we just had a huge snow storm recently although I hadn’t left the house in over a week and was out of work for personal reasons.) I said that it was probably the weather and she said “well I guess we will find out at your appt on the 4th!” (My period is supposed to start onThursday the 31st.)

I took a digital test this morning and it was negative. I know they need more hcg but I’m 3 days away and I’m starting to get crampy and I’m falling asleep like allll the time. However I have little to know breast tenderness which normally I haven’t now.

She called on Friday to see if I was still sick and I told her it was getting worse but that I was taking it easy. She asked if I had my thyroid checked and all that and when I told her it’s all on my paperwork and that I had that tested less than 3 years ago she said that they will check back with me if the appt changes. (This is my yearly appt mixed with my fertility appt.)

I’m 23, so is my husband. My mom is the baby queen. She’s been pregnant 8 times and carried to term with healthy babies every time. My sister followed closely in her footsteps and got pregnant both times without trying more than a cycle. My husbands mom got pregnant back to back with no Problems and his dad got his step mom pregnant 7 times. (He’s 1 of 10 and I’m 1 of 12, 8 bio and 4 adopted)

So our families are kinda confused and such as to why we are having such a hard time. I’m getting concerned and my husbands trying not to worry.

I hate that I got my hopes up knowing damn well I’m gonna get my period. And I hate that I let her get to me in that way too. I told her she did get my hopes up and that I didn’t appreciate it and she apologized.

Does anyone else have moments where their hopes get up by medical professionals or pregnant friends?? How do you handle the let down?