Feeling defeated and heart broken.

8/9 dpo. I know it’s still early. But BFN. Seeing so many other women have positives by this time makes me sad.. it’s cycle #10. I just had a good feeling about this cycle. I really felt like it was the one. Now I have no symptoms besides mild cramping and my boobs are barely sore at all.. they’re usually super sore right after ovulation and nothing 😞. Period is due in 2-6 days I do not even know because I ovulated later than normal. Other months I kinda expected a negative and I was sad but moved on but this month I don’t know why it’s hitting me so hard to see these BFNs. My heart feels broken and I feel like all the effort we put in this cycle was a waste.. idk how to just stop trying tho and let it happen. It’s so hard. I know people say that is how they got pregnant but I can’t just stop.. I just needed to vent this out. I’ve had bloodwork and it’s normal, ultrasound was normal (more follicles than average) but obgyn said I have no other symptoms leading to pcos. Getting an hsg once period comes.. and husband gets his stuff checked out this week. I have to get up and get ready for the day and I feel too sad to even get off the couch this is horrible.. I’m so sorry so many women have to go through this😞😞😞😞😞 baby dust to all ✨