I feel so lost. I have very few friends and even fewer that I actually get to see and hang out with.

My best friend as a teenager was a Wiccan and I told her that we long as she didn’t try to push it down my throat we were okay. She went to church with me some and even eventually became a baptist (which is a different Christian faith than my own but that was okay).

However she ended up moving away and now I hardly see her and have limited contact. Two of my other friends are atheist and another is a Baptist. The two atheist live in different states and I don’t see them often however I talk to them almost daily. My other Baptist friend lives fairly close but we barely see each other despite talking frequently. We’re close but I wouldn’t say we’re best friends. We haven’t properly hung out in over a year but we talk often. She was a bridesmaid in my wedding.

However my current best friend, who I met through the converted Wiccan, has become a satanist. She was raised catholic and used to be extremely religious. Then she became a Wiccan and was Wiccan for almost a year. I was saddened and prayed for her but she never tried to convert me. However now she’s become a satanist. I only see her about once a month (if even that much) and I talk to her about once or twice a week. She stays very busy with her factory job so I don’t get to talk to her as much As my other friends. I’m so sad and scared for her. I’ve been praying but I feel conflicted. I don’t want to lose her. She’s my best friend and we have such a strong connection but it doesn’t feel right....being friends with a satanist. I’m praying so hard. I can’t lost her. I’m so lonely as it is. She’s the only friend that makes time for me and doesn’t always cancel plans last minute. She’s like family. I don’t know what to do.

I would kill for at least one friend who believed like me. I attend the church of Christ and we have such a small attendance at every location I’ve ever been too with very small young people populations except in the big cities. But I live in the middle of nowhere. I’ve never had a friend who shared my theology.

I’m scared for my best friend. I’m scared for her soul and scared for her physically because we live in the Bible Belt. I’m praying and trying to talk to her but she won’t have it. I don’t want to lose her so Ive given up trying to talk to her and am just praying but I still feel like it’s not enough. I know it’s her life and if this is how she wants to spend it then theirs nothing else I can do. I’ve done almost all I can. But now, when we hang out, it’s awkward on my part. At least when I think about it or see her satanic bible on the coffee table. I’m trying to get over it. Trying to accept it. But it’s hard. I pray for her every night.

I’m lost and lonely. And scared.