before 2018 ended i had planned to enter in a writing contest on wattpad come the start of the new year, and i was so excited! i had planned so much for more than one possible stories but i didn’t follow up with it. slowly i lost the motivation and passion to write them and the deadline for the first 2 000 words is today and i haven’t written a thing.

i’m currently in my room crying and snotting and just being a big, ugly mess. i’m so hurt!

i like to write. i do. but i just lost the motivation and this always fucking happens and it hurts so much because it’s something i like! i don’t write anymore. i don’t draw or paint. i don’t read. everything i’ve loves to do i just don’t do anymore and that fucking kills me.

i hate myself.