My body 😭😭

Karalee

I guess I'm just being super emotional and kinda need to rant but I feel my body is so out of whack the past few months.. It seems like since December my body is crazy. Long story short, in December I had a pregnancy scare bc I was 5 days late which I've never been but ended up starting my period. So my husband and I decided then to start trying to have a baby. My last two period I have cramped early and had spotting before my period. Mind you my husband and I tried 3/5 fertile days this round to have a baby. I'm not supposed to start until Wednesday of this week. Well Friday I was cramping pretty bad and had small drops of light pink spotting when I wiped. I was hopeful it was implantation bc I was almost a week before my period. Well I feel like my boobs have been Fuller and they have been kinda sore since yesterday and I'm peeing a lot more. I feel like I'm getting signs of it but then when I go to the bathroom my pee is clear but when I wipe there is more blood. Not like a period yet but not just spotting. No clots this time but idk how to tell if it's implantation or my period about to hit. Honestly this is so emotionally exhausting bc I want this so bad. I miscarried back in June of last year and I'm finally ready to have another baby but seeing these negatives are hard.. anyways.. end of rant. Sorry just all in my emotions!!