So there is obviously a long backstory to this because I’ve been friends with this girl for 8 years, but I’ll try to keep it as short as possible.

My friend and her serious boyfriend broke up about a year ago now. And it’s been hard on her.

I’ve been in therapy trying to process trauma from my abusive childhood and recovering from traumatic brain injury.

With these issues we’d been able to help and support each other as well as focus on our own recoveries. She’s always been there for me—her and her family. Through everything. So I’m confused by what’s happening.

4 months ago, my now ex-boyfriend beat me up and raped me. Out of nowhere.

Anyway my friend was the first person I called. Making a long story short...she has minimized it, blamed me, and ignored me since. After I told her, she immediately made me feel at fault then barely showed any support through the process of reporting, having a SART exam, breaking up with him, etc. When I called her out a couple weeks after it happened, she said she needed better boundaries between us. I was hurt by it and really needed support, but I tried to give her space anyway because she’s my best friend.

I was really struggling and felt alone in it, so I reached out to her again a few weeks later. She responded by telling me that when I say “I need someone to lean on” and “I know you’re trying to be for me how you can but it’s not enough right now”, it triggers her emotions from the breakup. I said I can’t have “half a friendship” with her right now and I thought I meant more to her. So I basically broke up with her. She said to let her know when I want to be friends again. I realize some things I said trying to express how hurt I am to her weren’t put in the best way but...

Am I crazy or is this girl making me getting raped about her feelings? Am I wrong for feeling like she owes me an apology? I’m so confused and hurt.