I’m writing this post for anyone else here who has struggled with this emotion like I have or is thinking of getting an abortion. So please if you have negative comments keep them to yourself.

I’m 21 years old and last year I decided to get a medical abortion at 6 weeks. I was 20 at the time. Just started a new job, just moved into a new apartment with my boyfriend and about two weeks before that we found out I was pregnant.

I had so many emotions run through my head.. my 19 year old sister just had a baby that I adored so much and having an abortion seemed like the worst thing to do. My boyfriend and I talked about it but he was scared too and wasn’t that supportive, and it was honestly just horrible timing. I felt alone. My mother was a single parent and I’ve watched her struggle, I grew up without a father and I didn’t want myself or baby to go through that.

I decided to get a medical abortion. I cried and cried. I didn’t want it but I felt pressured to get one and right after taking that abortion pill I regretted it but there was no going back. I felt like apart of me was gone and I resented my boyfriend for not stopping me and letting me go through with it. In my mind I wanted him to stop me. I shouldn’t have relied on someone else to make this decision for me.

Now here I am 7 months later depressed.. disgusted with myself, crying myself to sleep every night. I had a miscarriage at 5 weeks two months ago (which I felt was a punishment for my choice) and it made everything worse. I recently decided to seek help from a therapist. I’m still with the same guy and we both regret this and wish we could go back in time.

So ladies, if you’re in this boat feeling lost or pressured. Don’t be scared, save yourself a lot of heartache and sadness. Find support whether it’s family or a therapist. I hope my story helps others in this horrible predicament.