Terrified to see a baby in the toilet

I just went for an US today I’m supposed to be 11 weeks 5 days and the baby stopped growing at 9 weeks and no heartbeat. I’m scheduled for a D&E on Wednesday at the hospital but i literally just started bleeding. I called my DR and she said if tissue and clots pass by Wednesday I may not need the procedure. Im so scared its going to pass and I don’t know what to expect to see ? Will there be a baby? I’m freaking out and not handling this emotionally well.