I never thought I could do it. I’ve spent years in abusive relationships. I thought I would spend my life alone after being hurt so many times. I used make up to hide the pain I felt. I used to draw unnecessary attention to myself in hope of self destruction. On more than one occasion I put myself and my mental and sexual wellbeing in jeopardy.

A little over 8 months ago I had a mutual friend convince me to go on a double date. He was trying to introduce me to his vest friend. They met years ago in the military and continued on in friendship. Our age difference felt like it would be a problem. 38 and 23. The only one with a problem is his ex wife. We continued to see each other despite my own reservations. The more I withdrew myself the deeper he loved me. I couldn’t tell him I loved him. I couldn’t say it first. I couldn’t cling to the idea of a future with another person. I couldn’t think of a home together and our future children. Slowly I trusted again. His love and earth drew me in. He was strong and gentle with me. He allowed me the space for me to bring myself healing. He welcomed my mess into his life as I have his. His divorce is messy and he comes with children from his previous marriage but I want us to grow as a family when the time is ready.

My Pig dog for attention 💕