Can anyone help me figure this out?

Lu

I know I am a girl right? But sometimes I don’t feel like one. I donno I don’t feel like a boy per say but I just don’t think it’s correct to say I’m a girl? I mean some times (though rarely) I do wanna do girly things like dress up with my friends and wear makeup but most of the time I don’t. It’s hard to explain but it’s kinda as if my body doesn’t match with what I am inside? I don’t think I’m just a boy or just a girl though at any given time just kinda like a girl or somewhere in between male and female? Any ideas what this might mean? I already know I’m pan-ace but this is bugging me for probably a year or two and I just can’t figure it out.