TTC after miscarriage

I had a really hard time with my miscarriage early in the fall. We stared ttc again in November and since then it’s been a rollercoaster of emotions. I know I’ll be really scared if I find out I’m pregnant again, but at the same time I feel so ready to be a mom and have a baby. I’ve been obsessing over trying to get pregnant while at the same time still learning to accept the past. I know I should relax and be more trusting of God’s timing, but how?! My husband is more relaxed about it and doesn’t like if he knows I use the ovulation tests or take pregnancy tests before a missed period. I wish I could chill, but it’s a struggle. Anyone else experience this? How do you cope? It’s so hard to stop thinking about it and none of the friends or family I talk to seem to understand. How can I be more patient?!? 😭 Open to any advice you might have or similar personal experiences. Thank you 💛