My name is Tiffany and I am 19 almost 20 years old. I was never allowed to date but I took it so seriously, so I never dated anyone in middle school and high school. Never even had a first kiss. Last month my job had a Christmas party and at the party I hung out with a coworker (we will call him Joseph). I let him drive me home since he offered and I felt I could trust him(I have trust issues). We talked the whole ride there and continued to talk for 2 hours parked in my driveway. We were listening to music and then he stopped it. I felt my stomach drop, I knew something was up. He said "Can I ask you a something?" I responded with yes. "Can I kiss you?" He asked. I paused and thought about it for a second. My first kiss is right there. Just get it over with. But I couldn't, I told him no and he even asked me if he could walk me to my door and I said no. I told my friends and then I showed them a picture of him and they all were mad that I let him go. They said he could have been my future husband and that's what scared me the most. I want to date around before I find the one, I dont want the one the first round. But everyone told me that logic was dumb. What do you think? Is it dumb to want to have fun before finding the one?