I just.. ugh..why

the tension is rising.... we're suppose to go to his work party saturday.. he'll be drinking.... i'm not sure I wanna go anymore. every 2 weeks though.... every..2..weeks. I didn't even say anything today. he asked for 5 dollars an all I asked was where did your money go..(I told u bla bla bla.. he says he tells me stuff but he don't).. then he goes forget it an it escalates to him calling me names. so I just laid back down. didn't really react. the other day the names started all cause I brought up..calmly the weed crap. yesterday it was. idek.. he asked what my plans were since I was gonna shower I said if anything just radio shack an idk what he said and I go okay boss an that's when he goes ugh I just wanna an raised his fist. he always says it is me though.. i'm being calm.. I'm not even doing anything..I wish I had help