I have such amazing family and friends and I’m so thankful they are there. But theirs a part of me that wants more. When I was younger I’d be obsessed with the next toy/gadget/phone and my parents started to notice when I’d beg for the next thing. I knew I needed to take control and teach myself materialistic things don’t make me happy. If they did I would of been happy with the first phone I ever got. Now all I want is acceptance and love. I feel lonely and lost because I see a bunch of girls with bfs or gfs and I feel left out. I always think im gonna be alone forever. My own dad said i sometimes shutout my emotions and people closest to me but whatever. If they care they should ask how I’m doing like I always do to them. I always respond to when my friends say they are having a hard time. I want someone who is there for me just as much as I am to them. My parents work and have good jobs but they are tied up with that even when they get home. And my friends have parents either work from home or don’t work or are retired and in the summer I’m home alone doing ducking nothing unless my parents take a week off. I can’t drive yet BUT I’m trying to get a job and send out resumes. I’m looking forward to a job because it gives me a purpose in life. I’m in grade 10 and yeah it can seem like love will never come but I think to myself maybe my dad was right, I guess I am emotionally distant but I’ll figure that out. If girls can get with other girls and guys and make it known to the school, why can’t I. Being lonely is a big fear of mine. This is all over the place but it’s a place to lay it out without harming anyone. I just wanna say I am beyond thankful for the life I was given so I don’t wanna burden my parents with my “problems” anymore. Feel free to comment your opinions, story’s or whatever.