I broke it off when with my baby’s father about a week before Christmas. Most people ask if he is supportive and I suppose he is in a small way (I get a text message every so often, I think to see if I’m alive). I would like some financial support, although I’ve yet to see that out of him even throughout our relationship. Some days I feel empowered and other days the anxiety is overwhelming. I think of the future and I fear what I will feel when he is around. I fear that I will lose a sense of myself, just as before. This applies to even the near future. He is having his own baby shower (which is weird, right?) which I am a party to not THE party (please agree, weird). Maybe I feel a sense of entitlement because I don’t know, I’m the one who has shifted my daily life when I became and continued to BE pregnant. A concept which he never came to grasp or respect when we were a couple. I still don’t believe that he does but I want peace. Not for anyone else but for me. To feel it internally, so my child will know peace and my other relationships as well. Is there anyone out there experiencing a similar situation?