Last month I had a miscarriage, I was only 5wks. We decided to try again immediately. Today AF was supposed to start but didn't, I got two lines instead. Very faint but totally there. My husband isn't excited this time. He thinks I'm "not all the way pregnant". I know it was hard for him to see me so upset last time. But I want to be happy about it, I want to celebrate. Instead of thinking of this as our baby though I've settled in my mind that it's a potential baby. That I'm not allowed to be happy yet, that I didn't do it yet, that we haven't really made a baby yet. It's not fair. I feel like that miscarriage stole our excitement from this "potential" baby.

Tests are from this morning (top) and this afternoon (bottom). I've spent most of today obsessing over wether or not I actually see a line there at all. Then husband says wait and make sure I'm really pregnant this time. Like I wasn't before, or like this one will be just like last time.