Guilty of tubaligation😭😣

Hey you guys!!!

I'm so glad I found this app cause I love reading all positive and negative stories. I truly pray God blesses us abundantly for miracle babies to be born. I'm currently married with Four living children and my tubes were tied 6years ago, after doing some research I found out that they can grow back together through out the years. I've had a lot of trauma over the years where I lost my son back September 25, 2008 by my highschool sweetheart not the one I currently have my 4 living children by now, however it was unknown cause of death at birth ruled out to be a stillborn long story short I was only 16 & Drs told me I'd never be able to have kids again it would all just be in my head but the devil was a liar 5 times with 4living miracles. Following a tubal pregnancy right after I had my twins which they will be 6 in October of this year. They took alot out of me. I started having seizures from withdrawals of medications I had been prescribed for anxiety that were not safe while breastfeeding and I couldn't see myself having anymore kids so they just clamped my tubes and shortly in 2015 I was pregnant in my tubes followed by a DNC and a cleaning around my uterus area and hemorrhoid removal I know right I was all monked up. After having PTSD not to mention having a husband on diaylsis whom was also told he would not be able to produce being that he had renal kidney failure. I started getting more depressed doing drugs I could never imagined and never forgave myself for it but I come today to tell you we can get through anything with the higher power nobody got you like you got you and nobody can't do you like JESUS 🤗 ,& as Christian who does sin like everyone else I will never stop singing his praises that's right I sing too I love gospel and all types of different genres of music cause everyone has a story to tell. I also created a war room just like the movie itself and started writing down prayers,but as I just get to the very point instead writing all over the place. I got a positive ovulation this month and we did Try for our rainbow baby after knowing that no matter what storms come our way I just ask that God has on this miracle and that my husband gets back on the kidney list as we are working on that now in Jesus name🙏🏾👼🏽Again good luck to you all or as I see most say let that baby dust come on through, God Is a healer and a miracle worker we got this ....positive energy is the key and I will keep you all updated Along the way.