Sex is dead to me...

Possible trigger warning

TMI warning.

I know this picture is of a mans perspective but it’s the first thing that I have seen that relates to how I feel about sex now.

My ex wanted it all the time and if I didn’t I was cheating on him,he’d get sooo pissed he’d even start breaking things in thee house, so I didn’t say no, I would avoid sex at all cost, wash the dishes a few extra times so he’d be tired and wouldn’t ask, stay in the shower longer so he’d be asleep when I got out things like that.

Now I finally left that relationship and I found an amazing guy who tries to be patient with me and all my insecurities and depression and everything but I’m worried that if I keep doing what I am doing (only having sex about once every two weeks) then he’s going to eventually leave me or something and I don’t wanna lose him. He feels like I’m not into him anymore and I sooo am my ex just kinda messed up everything about sex for me, I don’t even like being played with anymore.

Is there any way I can change how I feel about sex, will I ever enjoy it again?? What can I do????