why me bitch

i feel so depressed rn. i’m finally dating the guy of my dreams (we’ve been dating for a year now) and my ex recently reached out to me on snapchat and we’ve talked a bit for that day and the next and he was telling me he loves me and i’ll always have his heart and all that gross shit, i kept telling him to stop bc i don’t want that in my head/heart and it’ll mess with me. and now i feel so horrible for speaking to him and i want to cry my heart out bc i feel like my heart still loves him but i don’t want to love him. i’m so in love with my now boyfriend and he deserves to world, he deserves so much better than me, idk what to do. if i tell my boyfriend he will literally freak and break up with me bc he’s a big jealous type and i mean i’d be mad at him if he did the same thing so idk fuck me right.