I slipped up ........now I’m sad

When I’m out shopping , I try my best to avoid the children aisles , but today I slipped up . I want to cry !!!! I feel like I’m in a sick dream and haven’t woke up yet . Why me ???? That’s what we all think , right ? It’s been also 3 years and I can’t take it any more . I remember when I was pregnant I was so happy . Every day I woke up happy no how my day went . I will never really experience true happiness until I deliver my rainbow baby . 💔