After several conversations with my fiance, praying for a sign to lead us in the right direction I finally got my sign last night. We are not meant to biologically have children. My fiance says deep down he's known this but he didn't know how to tell me. The sign I've been given is that I'm meant to care for other people's children. I've always wanted to be a NICU nurse so that's where my path is leading me. I do hope that through this career change and discovery process we will eventually become parents in whatever way God has planned for us. But for now, we are no longer TTC or pursuing any Avenue of becoming parents.