I do not know if it is my hormones, but I am not excited. I cannot connect with this baby. I just want my son and that is it. I feel so terrible, but I do not feel ready to be a mother of 2. I know there is so many women out there who worked so hard to get pregnant and it makes me feel like shit not being able to be happy for this baby. I just know everyone will disapprove of this baby, and everyone will be so disappointed of me for getting pregnant. I just feel so bad. My husband is excited, and I am over here wishing I was not pregnant. I do not need people to destroy me for my feelings I know I am a horrible person, but i just cannot be excited.