I have no friends. I’ve had friends before in the past but I’ve had a string of failed friendships and I don’t know what it is about me. I don’t know if I’m fake or toxic and I just don’t know it. But I’ve always been left feeling like it was my fault, and that I was to blame, mainly because I was told it was my fault, and I’ve been made to feel bad about everything wrong. Since I have no friends now, I’m used to it. I’ve lost any desire to care about making friends, I’ve lost any desire to keep in touch with anyone. I’m used to never having anyone text me to see how I’m doing. I’m used to feeling alone and not having anyone text me. I also have social anxiety and anxiety in general and keeping people around in my life makes me nervous. I just don’t know if there’s anything wrong about me and not having friends. I don’t know if I’m toxic or something