Just a bit of a background. My boyfriend and I have been dating for 5 years soon to be 6 in June. We're basically high school sweethearts. We love each other a lot and he's amazing.

We are currently living with his mom while we both are working and I am going to school. I love his mom and his family. They treat me so well. But there are times where I feel like I no longer want to live under the same roof and just want to move out. My boyfriend and I have been planning to but he recently decided that he wants to stay until he is able to pay off his debt, which is ok but at the same time...I don't want to wait longer. There are also times where I just want to go back home and stay there just so I can be with my family and friends back home. But it's a 2 hour drive back home and my boyfriend never wants me to leave... so then I'd usually just call them or video chat with them. But that's not enough for me so I've been pretty sad about it. Living in a different city definitely makes me feel pretty lonely too. Like, I do have friends and acquaintances from school but I just like that feeling that you get when you're with your best friends...hanging out and just chilling.

Sorry, I know this is like all over the place but I just couldn't seem to put it all together. It's just hard putting it into words and writing it down.