Hello! This is my first time posting on this subject but I have read through several threads for different reasons while trying to conceive. My husband and I have been trying for around 2 years, and the doctor says that there's small cysts on my ovaries and pcos. But nevertheless, we can't get pregnant. I have always felt that I would never be able to have children, even at this Age. That probably sounds very strange, but it's true.

I feel an overwhelming amount of guilt knowing that I may never be able to give my husband his own child. He says that he loves me and doesn't care, and that it might just not be in God's plan for us to have children. But when I think about him not having his own child, I immediately break down in tears and wonder what I should do. I want him to have a biological child who looks and acts like him, and I know that he does too. He comes from a huge Family, and he has always thought that he would have a big family as well. I love him more than anything in this world, but I sometimes wonder if I should divorce him so that he will have a chance to find someone else and have children. Again, he has been nothing but supportive, and I love him more than anything...if I divorced him, that would be it for me. There is no one in this world who compares to my husband. But I feel that it's selfish of me to keep him from having his own child.

Can someone please tell me if I'm completely insane for thinking this way? When I talk to my friends and tell them this is how I feel, they say I'm nuts. But they have all been able to give their husbands children, so I feel like they don't understand. Someone even told me that I must not truly love him if I would be able to divorce him. But the fact is, I love him so much that it kills me to think that I am keeping him from having his own baby, and I would rather be miserable for the rest of my life without him if he would be able to have a baby and be happy. Does anyone else feel the way I feel? An insane amount of guilt?

Thank you in advance if you reply. I'm praying for each and every one of you who can't get pregnant.