Always disappointed

I have been trying to get pregnant for a little over 3 years and I always get a faint line but I am not. I don’t even get my hopes up anymore I am hopping this month i do get pregnant I will hope for the best but prepare for not. My sister who is older than I got married little over a year ago just had a beautiful baby boy yesterday day I can’t wait to meet him but I can’t help feel up set Thant I don’t have a little one of my own I am happy for her but I can’t help feel jealous. Sorry for the long post I just needs to let it out and also sorry for my spelling