its tough rn

idk why Im like this but I look up the “average” weight for a teen my age and its 120lbs and I look at the scale and see 161lbs and feel so terrible. idk how my boyfriend could love me when I look like this. and whenever I feel bad about myself I eat which then just makes me feel worse and its a terrible cycle. ive tried too many times to count to try and eat healthy but I see a bag of chip or a piece of cake and just enjoy it. I just wanted to come here and explain what im feeling and if anyone else is feeling like this too youre not the only one