So long post coming lol this is mostly a quick rant.

I have 2 kids. I've been with my boyfriend for awhile and hes amazing to me and my kids (not his) we've been planning for pur future, talking about marriage etc. We've also been talking about having one more baby. My third, his first. Hes confusing as fucking shit though. Like one week, a baby is all he wants. And the next hes like ehhhh maybe not right now. (Which I actually agree with) like I WANT another one. But I want to be more stable then we are first and my youngest doesnt turn 1 till next month! But anyway I had a gyno appt today so I got birth control! Just the patch. Was told to wear it continuously to stop my period as well. Told my man when I got home and he dead ass was upset! 🤦 like man make up your mind!!! And then he goes "well I don't really want one RIGHT now. We should wait and be stable. But if it happened I'd be okay with it and beyond happy" like wtf dude! We both know we should wait. Especially me where he keeps getting cold feet but Jesus make up your mind please!