So my man and I had a chat last night and I told him how excited I am about us trying for a baby now. I told him that I get sad that he’s not as excited as me and that I worry that I’m forcing him to do something he doesn’t want to do.

He was a bit quiet and I got upset that he wasn’t saying much and he said ‘I’m just trying to think of what to say’ I told him to be honest.

So he said ‘I think our timing isn’t exactly lining up with when we wanted to start a family, but I am looking forward to being a dad and I’m really looking forward to making you a Mum. I want to do this for you now because you’re the most important person in my life and I want to do anything I can to make you happy. I wish I could be more excited about it but you know I’m not an excitable guy in general. Everything is going to work out perfectly and I know I’m going to be excited when we do become parents.’

I just think that was a really sweet response.

I have also gained HEAPS of weight lately and he has never once made me feel bad or unattractive. He is still loving and physically affectionate. He still tells me I’m beautiful and that he is the luckiest man to be with me.

Side note - It has been a big week with me watching someone I’m very close to take her last breath and then having to officiate her funeral service yesterday. I’m not usually that emotional and needy (expect for the few days leading up to my period 🙊), but this week I am just a big bag of tears.