Sleeping with two exes

I can’t pick it’s hard.. I recently broke up with my current ex because he was possessive and jealous. i started getting suspicious with him because of how insecure he was being.. I felt like I gave him a lot of chances to turn it around and he wasn’t now he seems like he is because I owned up to him and told him I slept with my ex. He wasn’t happy but not mad either.. he said he’s not holding grudges and that was his huge problem before hand. My other ex also was an asshole and cheated on me but that’s when we were 16 and were 21 now so we’ve “talked for a long time” and it’s just fun hooking up with both of them it’s different.. I love them both. Two guys I’ve ever loved in my life. So it’s really hard where to know what to do from here advice ? I know it’s wrong you don’t need to tell me that.. I am single .. I can’t help but feel kinda guilty