Confession: I’m a single horny Christian woman

I used to be hornier more than now and get so hot and bothered. I’ve had a few relationships in my past I’m now 24. I do still think about sex even if I’m no longer having it with some one. I want to do what is pleasing in the eyesight of God. I was younger than 24 when I made my mistakes with others in the flesh. Now that my greater wisdom has been gained and my eyes have opened more, I am better able to control myself. Sometimes I feel as if I don’t want to have sex and sometimes I do want to do it. But something triggers it like music or my FB timeline popping some random clothed-less guy with just boxers and a huge brick!!. I’ve even had an orgasm from listening to an old R&B Alicia keys song. Never thought that could happened. But it made me feel so good when it happened 😳...I’ve even had sexual dreams that were not so appealing to me because they involved my loved ones... last night I stayed up all night because I’m in school. I got these horny feelings in my pants. So I just sought help online to figure out if anyone else is going through the same (no doubt). I even played gospel music and started dancing the devil off my back. I meditate to read my bible and pray. I try to resist yielding to the temptation to masturbate with vibrator in my drawer.. sometimes I just think maybe I should throw it away😒. I know it’s not just a few of people in the world that feel the same as me. But I’m really trying. I want to be horny and stay that way for my husband one day. It’s so hard waiting, seeing everyone else get married and knowing they can actually be comfortable having sex with their Spouse! I can wait for my day though 😌. I just wonder if anyone else is going through the same? Maybe we could chat and talk about what we feel and when it happens. These sexual thoughts outside of marriage have burdened me for a while.