I’m now onto month 5 TTC. I don’t know why, but I had it in my head it would be so easy. I think you get shocked at school into thinking ‘if you ain’t on contraception, you’ll fall pregnant’ so it kinda puts the fear into you?!

I’m 32, I got married in Sept & the plan was to fall pregnant straight away (how naive was I?) I’ve come off the pill for almost a year now & we used condoms ‘just to be on the safe side’ in the run up to the wedding. (I really wish we didn’t now).

I’ve had mixed months, some months totally devastated because I’ve felt like my body has let me down & other months of generally feeling like ‘fuck it, pass the wine. ’ this month I feel different, like I’m trying to take everything in because it’s not that easy.

I totally take my hat off to those who have been TTC for some time. You are all such strong, inspirational women, that you find it in you to keep going.

I really hope 2019 is going to be a lucky year.

To those of you who read this, thanks for taking in my vent. ♥️